I have come to accept the fact that my family is dysfunctional at best. It use to bother me how dysfunctional my family was but as I got older I realized everybody has a dysfunctional family in some way. No family is perfect. We all have our issues. I just wish we were close. And wish I was better at communicating. I guess all i can do is take it one step at a time. No matter what we go through I will always love my family, through the ups and the downs.
It’s been year today on July 5th that I have been without my brother Lamount. When he passed I didn’t think I would make it. And even though its been a year it still hurts and it probably always will. There are times when I think I am doing ok then I’m reminded that he is gone. But although he’s gone I know that his love, his spirit and the memories are always with me. I will always carry him with me no matter what .
Grief is a difficult thing to deal with. And the moment you think you are finally healing something happens to open up that wound again. You know that you will never be the same and that you will always grieve what you lost.
Good Afternoon everyone, and Happy Christmas Eve. Today I am making my Christmas Dinner a day early. I am making it today instead of tomorrow because I have to work tomorrow. I am making a pot roast with carrots,onions,potatoes and greens on the side. And I have a cheesecake for dessert. I can’t wait to to taste it! I hope everyone enjoys their holiday!I will take a picture of the food and post it later.
Grieving is a difficult thing. Its been a month since I lost my brother, and its hurts more now. There are moments that come along where he pops in my head and I wonder what he would do in this situation or that situation. There are moments where I just want to cry. Its like there is a piece missing where he should be. I just hate grieve. I know it will never go away. I will always be grieving my big brother even as I start to slowly move forward, things will never be the same.
I never realized how hard it is to do your family research especially when you have incomplete info. I’ve been trying to research on my family and I am stuck, I have hit a road block. But I am going to keep trying, I am going to continue my research though. Ancestry research is not easy especially when records are missing, there are no records at all, and or no one is trying to help you. But I think eventually I will figure things out.
I’ve been trying to figure out the words to say but I’ve been in complete shock since the news broke. I am still in complete shock about it . Not only was Kobe’s life taken but eight others died in the crash. Three young girls lives were taken .To the victims families I’m keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.
When I decided to my dna on sites like ancestry and, 23 and me I never expected to learn so much. I learned things about my family that I didn’t know before . It was cool seeing how my ethnicity was broken up. It amazed me how big my family is. I think in the long run it was worth it. But my advice to anyone that is thinking about doing their dna is to think long and hard about it before you do it. Make sure you understand that you could be opening doors and digging up long buried family secrets.And understand the weight that comes with it. It may not come out the way you thought it would.
Just wanted to say Happy Holidays to all and I hope that you are all enjoying your time with the people you love. Enjoy every moment and don’t take the holidays for granted . You never know when you could be creating everlasting memories that you will never forget!!
There has been so much going on and I have so much on my mind that i need to get it off my chest. As I sit here I never imagined that i would be seeing first hand what my ancestors witnessed . My ancestors fought and worked so hard to make sure that future generations of our family wouldn’t suffer what they suffered and yet here we are . The sad truth that I have come to realize is that we as a country are reverting backwards instead of going forward. When is enough going to be enough ? This Country will not flourish and thrive if we are divided. I never thought i would see the day when I would see our country come apart at the seams. I mean i used to read it in the history books about moments when the country was divided but to actually see it for myself, to witness this saddens me.
This immigration ban saddens me, one because this is not what this country is about and two because it has an affect on my family. If trump can easily put a immigration ban on Muslims whats to say he won’t put one non Muslim immigrants . I think about my Muslim classmates and how this is affecting them and their families. and i think about my other classmates who are immigrants or has family that are immigrants . And now i am worried about my family how its going to effect us. People come to America to have a better life ,they don’t come here just to end up back in the same situation they were in. I wish i can say that things will get better but only time will tell.
“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.” – Martin Luther King Jr