At what point do you say enough is enough. I think I am at my point. I am mentally and emotionally exhausted. On the weekend I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown twice. I have a really bad habit of keeping everything bottled up and saying I’m OK when I am not really ok. It’s a bad habit I am trying to break but it’s hard especially when you’ve been like this your whole life. I know I definitely need to make some changes in certain areas of my life.
As you may or may not have heard, Simone Biles has withdrawn from the Individual All-Round because of Mental Health issues . I applaud Simone for putting her mental health first. I think that its hard for some people to admit when they are struggling mentally. Mental Health shouldn’t be ignored. I feel like sometimes mental health is often ignored and put to the side. Your health comes first and foremost, You can’t do what you need to do or help others if you aren’t taking care of yourself. I can’t imagine how difficult it was to come to that decision for Simone .I wish Simone nothing but the best and she is in my thoughts and prayers.
My anxiety is starting to flare up. I hate having anxiety. Writing helps its. Thats one of the reasons I started this blog. This blog gives me a place to be myself,to vent, to express myself. I am not really good at saying how I feel. But when I write it just comes out.
As you all may know there has been a lot going on in the news regarding Britney’s Spears Conservatorship. There was documentary awhile back about Britney which I did see. Britney herself has come out and has spoken about the conservatorship. It saddens me how Britney has been treated all these years. She deserves so much better, she has given so much of herself to the world and has been treated poorly in return. I remember when Britney had her breakdown in 2008.As a fan who grew up watching her,and listening to her music it was devastating watching her fall apart. It was because of her and what she was and is going through that my blinders towards celebrities came off. I began to see and realize that the people that we see perform,that we idolize,that we see in magazines, movies and on tv, they are human beings. They go through ups and downs,they have feelings and emotions,they hurt, they cry ,they laugh,they smile, they struggle,and they make mistakes just as we all do . Sometimes as a society i think we forget that. To hear how Britney Spears is being treated within the conservatorship is horrible. She should be able to live her life the way she wants and she should be able to live it freely. She should be able make decisions, and she should be able to have control over her own body . The conservatorship was put it place to help her instead its hurting her.I hope that the courts get rid of conservatorship because it’s doing more harm then good. As a fan I just want Britney to be happy whatever that means for her. I wish her nothing but the best, I hope and pray that courts listen to her and remove the Conservatorship.